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being a teenage girl,
i have lots of desires...
lots of problems
lots of things and feelings..
i want someone who i can talk to
and share what i feel
share my problems and
everything..
always be there for me
listen to every single word i said,
give his or her opinion
and always support me
i need that someone
i had found her,
she's very nice to me
loved me so much, i guess,
listened to me,
willing to help me,
even she, herself, is in trouble too
give opinions
even sometimes i don't really agree with hers.
it is kind of helping me
but she got so many things to do,
as i am
she couldn't spend lots of her time just listening to me
she wanted to talk about anything else too..
share her problems too..
but i just need someone
who can listen to me
solve my problem
and will not ask anything in return.
i need someone else..
she is not what i'm looking for.
i kept on searching
Then, i found him
he is very nice and kind too
he loved me with all his heart, it was what he said to me,
he spent more time with me compared to her,
he listened to every single word i said, not missing anything,
he helped me on solving my problems too,
he was more willing to listen than talking about his problems,
which something that i really want,
he made me forget about many things
i was so happy..
but,
not all his times are for me
he had to do anything else,
he was not always by my side,
he cannot be anywhere i am
whenever i need him,
he just can't..
yeah, i need more..
he is not something i'm looking for,
i want someone who can do more than that..
Next, i look back at the other 'he and she',
who are always there for me,
always by my side,
always waiting for me to talk anything about my problem,
always love me and care for me with all their heart
but i didn't see them,
however,
it's not enough,
i love them and don't want them to listen to all my silly and simple problems
and i don't want to burden them with my very big problem..
i just can't.
they are not what i'm looking for..
i do need them but i want more,
Finally, i found Him,
He has every single thing that i'm looking for,
He's always there for me,
He is always by my side, everytime, everywhere.
He knows everything, even if i don't say anything,
He helps me, even i don't ask Him to,
He shows me the way and the solutions of all my problems,
He guides me, to ensure that i'm not lost,
i know that He loves me very much
if i love Him and seek His love,
i can share anything,
i can talk about anything,
i can ask Him for everything..
and, He always listen to me..
and He don't ask anything in return,
just asking me to be grateful..
yes, this is what i want
finally i found it..
Thank you Allah
I love Allah
bila hati bersuara. kata munajat Cinta. He loves u more than anyone do.
if mom can love us with full of heart, that's only 1% of Allah's love. He has another 99%love for us :)