I don't know what i've been learning for the past 4 weeks..
Why i'm still this blurr and seems like not knowing anything...
First day, yes i prepared, in fact one day earlier, but still, i did it badly..
And actually i irritated Prof S and he said i will fail my exam if i do something like this during my actual exam..
And after that i tried my best, tried to stay up a bit late, not very late but at least still force myself to study eventhough i am soooo sleepy and tired and tersengguk-sengguk...
Yesterday, i had to present again, as a bidan terjun, a case that i didnt even take a look at for about 2 days, and actually i didn't remember much about it..just read what i wrote two days before that..and it is actually like rubbish..and luckily the doctor is not that garang, but i knew that i've been presenting a rubbish history, not even have a flow, and so much things missing..
Sedih giler after tu and i keep on giving myself excuses like it's ok, this time i didnt prepare, wapon yang dah prepare awal2 aritu pon teruk je kena...
And today, again!! It's actually good for me, because i can learn my mistakes and all, and will help me to improve in the future..
Tapiiiiii, sebenarnyeeeee, selepas kena komplen dan 'marah' banyak2 tapi masih di takuk lame, rase DOWN sangat3!!!rase macam bodoh sangat je sebab taktaw benda simple..rase macam bodoh sangat je sebab dah kena tegur tapi tak jadi elok jugak, dan asyik blurr macam tak pernah belajar apa2 pon selama ni...
Down taw tak!!!!!
So, hazirah budak degil, tolong la improve benda2 yang sepatutnye, kenape la susah sangat nak jadi better, taw tak exam tak sampai 3 minggu je lagi!!!!
Kenape susah sangat nak ingat benda2 penting, kenapa blurr sangat, kenape???!!
Ke sebab tak minat obsgynae?
tapi kena minat jugak..tolong la...
Lepas ni, kena ade study plan, kena study smart!!kena rajin!!dan practise present case!!please....T_T
